I have trust issues.
It’s been awhile since I’ve blogged but those who follow me on here, know that I have trust issues. The textpics I post via Instagram support this fact.
It’s been awhile since I felt like someone betrayed me but it’s kinda how I feel right now. When you trust someone with your heart and they misuse it, openly, that does something to you.
I thought I was over it. I said what I had to say, got my feelings out, but for some reason it keeps lingering. That feeling of being used. I hate it, I don’t want to claim that but it’s how I feel…used.
When you’re in that moment, having that feeling of whatever you’re feeling; you want it to go away. Waiting for the moment for it to be over. I resonate with that Keyshia Cole song so much. Just as much now as I did back then.
When will it be over?
I have mental conversations with the Universe. I feel like we aren’t connecting, or maybe it’s me. Not sure.
I realize I’m rambling.
My point was just simply get my feelings out on a page. Maybe someone felt or feels the same. Crimes of the heart should have a sentence of life in emotional dispair with no option for parole. Some of us might feel better if such a punishment existed.
But I digress…